Let's consider this the first of many discussions regarding my most recent health and fitness journey. I kept having people ask me, what are you doing to lose weight? While the "what" is very important, I wanted to start by sharing the "why" .
So about a month or so ago, I shared a picture on Instagram where I spoke briefly about how good it felt to shed some mental and physical weight. I’ve always been a big girl, plus size, chubby, fluffy, or whatever you would like to call it. For me, losing weight is just as much about changing how I look, as it is changing how I feel. I hope that you don't take me saying that I wanted to change how I look as me not loving myself or not being happy, because that's not the case. I can assure you that I love myself as much today as ever before. None of this work that I have put in is to adapt to society's standards of beauty. It just feels right, and as I stated in the Instagram post, I am enjoying the process.
Fall 2016, I began working out again. Here I was paying $29.00/month for a gym membership, and only going a few times a year (talk about a waste of money). I initially only did cardio during my trips to the gym, and I was still not making the best eating choices. Then January 2017 rolled around, and of course: new year, new me, but this time I was serious. For once, summertime fine was not the goal. I just knew that I desperately needed a change. So much so, that it is all I really thought and talked about. I began meal prepping, and making more consistent efforts in the gym. I wanted to become more disciplined, and to take on more of a challenge, so I hired a personal trainer. That is probably one of the best decisions that I have ever made in regards to my health and fitness journey. Over the course of five months, I have watched myself transform physically in ways that I never imagined. This transformation has not only reshaped my body, but it has reshaped my belief in myself and my abilities. My exercise and healthy eating regimen has also helped me to be more disciplined with being organized and managing my time more wisely.
Let us pause for a moment... I do not have it all figured out, and what works for me may not work for you. This is a personal journey. We are all motivated for one reason or another, our lives are different, and our bodies are not the same. The one thing that I had to realize is that I had to do this for me. I was tired of feeling heavy and getting winded when walking up a flight of stairs. This is the only body that I'll ever have, so I know I have to treat it right and fuel it properly. I haven't really shared much relating to this lifestyle change because like I said, I'm still figuring it out.
I'm not trying to paint you a pretty picture or sell you a dream that it's easy, because it is far from it. I probably have more cheat meals and snacks than I should, and I don't always feel like going to the gym, grocery shopping, meal prepping, or even packing my gym bag (as easy as that is). However, I know that the results of being disciplined and following through have surpassed my personal expectations. I haven't even been able to do too much of anything to my hair in months because I know that it will just sweat out from exercising. Since adopting a healthier lifestyle, I feel lighter, my clothes fit looser, I have more energy, my blood pressure is lower, I'm not winded from walking up a flight of stairs, and I don't deal with acid reflux symptoms as often. So a bad hair day here and there is the least of my concern.
You know how the Nike slogan goes "Just Do It"? Well, I just did it, and I am consistently continuing to do it. It's a daily choice. I stopped talking about it, making excuses, saying that I'll start next or next month or on Monday, and I stopped doubting myself. One thing that I know for sure is that people get tired of hearing about what you're going to do. Just make the necessary moves in whatever aspect of your life, and let your hard work speak for itself. I started putting in the work, making the time for it, and focusing on the bigger picture which, again, is not to be summertime fine (but I will be lol), but to manifest a healthy lifestyle, challenge myself physically, and move far away my comfort zone. I hope that this personal journey of mine inspires your own.